I believe what goes around, comes around. That people get what they deserve in the end. I always try to be a realist, see the world as it is, and make my life decisions based on that. I take pride in everything I do, whether it be work, this blog, the way I dress or the message I send out to the world.
Why am I telling you this? Well I've been debating whether I write this or not, but in the end, if I can get it off my chest, I can move on quicker. I lost my job last week. I got made redundant. And as upset as I was, I have too my pride to let people walk over me.
A major life change like this is making me think about what I really want in life. For years I have been working in a corporate office doing marketing. At times I loved it, and others I hated it. Being jobless I'm starting think about what I really want to do. Did I choose this career, or did I fall into it? When I was little, like a lot of girls, I wanted to work for a fashion magazine. In fact, when I left school I applied to do fashion and textile design. I wanted so badly to work in the industry I wrote to magazine houses, I even got a job at David Jones, helping out in PR so I could get closer. Nope. A couple of years ago I started painting. I took a couple of art classes, did some oil paintings, sold a couple. I thought, maybe I could be an artist, but then I realised I'd rather leave that to when I'm retired. When I started this blog I was open to the food world. I thought how great would it be to work in the food industry? Working for Gourmet Traveller or Delicious magazine. I took up photography, partly due to this blog, but also because I loved it. Then a year ago I started doing a bit of graphic design. I got myself a couple of clients, doing their business cards and random design work. I ended up back at uni doing design and art. But now I'm just confused. I don't know what I want, but I know that I want to wake up every morning and be excited to go to work. I haven't ever really felt this way and am wondering if it's even possible.
I hit rock bottom last week. The best part of this is I now have some time to think about what I really want. I have nothing to lose, and everything to gain.